"Obsessions are often born out of avoidance. I've known for a very long time that these crucial flashes of fellow feeling take you over when there's something else looming that you are trying not to see."

-Susie Boyt

I really do believe there is a tiny black cloud in Baltimore that follows me around. In the past week I have been put in the middle of friends, my phone's mic broke so no one could hear me talk to them, my car started making funny noises, and I got in a fender bender. 

I was the most mad about the phone. Which I had just gotten. I was lucky enough to get a new one. I still hate technology though.

The woman I got in a fender bender with was really nice about it. I hit her, and it was totally my fault. I hope I don't jinx this but I hope she doesn't use my insurance information that I gave her.

I feel like everyone is coming out of social hibernation, with all these warm days that seem to come around every week or so. 

Today I walked Sassy with Roxy & Spike. Spike almost jumped head first into water that was about ten-fifteen feet below him. It wasn't funny at the time, but is kind of funny now. 

DAB needs a night out soon. I feel like the throne has been passed down to me and it's time to take control. If the above statement is true, no one is safe. DAB Baltimore Chapter lives.

Shout outs to: Kt, Laurren & William for keeping me occupied the last couple of weeks. 

I'm trying really hard to keep on top of everything in my life & I'm doing pretty well, except for this. I feel like I have been doing so much but at the same time nothing ever gets done. 

I got a dog. So far she has locked me out of my apartment, peed on my couch & chewed through two leashes. I feel like she sounds bad, but she really isn't. She is really pretty good, & is still getting adjusted. She is currently sleeping next to me, snoring because she is worn out from so much attention at my grandparent Superbowl party today. Since I'm on the subject, I hate the Steelers forever.

Someone is paying my Comcast bill & then cleaning up the evidence.  I haven't paid it for a long time & a couple days ago I got an email saying my bill was ready. I go back today to pay for it, and the email's not there, & I don't know my username/password without those emails. I still have the internet, so I don't care. But this is a message to my mysterious Comcast bill fairy, if you fail me & my internet gets disconnected, I will find you & kill you. 

I thought I would have more to say considering I haven't updated this in awhile. All I really have to say right now though, is for right now, I'm okay.

I was doing so well with updating this but things have been crazy again recently...

I have Spike for ten or so days, making me measurably more happy. He is currently sitting next to me, snoring, being very cute. He is also making it very hard to type. I have been taking him everywhere with me. He is the best sidekick ever. I think he misses Roxy though. Poor thing has no one to play rough with, he can only snuggle me.

So many NYE resolutions. The most important being that I am going to be more organized. I think a lot of my anxiety is caused by me thinking I have a lot to do but in reality it just seems like a lot because everything is so scattered and unplanned. I bought a planner today, wish me luck.

My birthday was so good! Anna made me a scavenger hunt around Fells Point and all my hints were hidden in various bars. I was done around one am though, and it took me a full day to recover. 

Options for 2009 catch phrases:

Lookin' Fine in 09

No time to Whine in 09

Time to Shine in 09

Any other ideas?

I think everyone has forgotten that December is National London Appreciation Month. I'm not feeling very appreciated so everyone needs to step their game up. Hanukkah, Christmas and my birthday so soon ! Love having so many different things to celebrate !

I feel like recently there are just not enough hours in the day to get stuff done. Or maybe I am just lazy and procrastinate. My apartment is so messy right now, and I had two consecutive days off and still did not clean it. The internet is such a bad distraction. Sometimes I seriously contemplate flushing my computer down the toilet. I feel like today I had an excuse though, Kt's Work Holiday party was so crazy !

I'm so bad at going to sleep when I need to. My mom told me I have a dentist appointment tomorrow, totally skipping it. First reason being, I hate the dentist, who ever wants to go to the dentist? Who really wants to get up early and drive to East Baltimore to go to a medical center located directly behind Perkins either? Not I. Also I don't have to be at work until two, meaning I will not be getting up until after noon.

I finished the whole series of the Wire. I am now accepting suggestions of another TV show to become obsessed with. Open to suggestions, really open to suggestions of TV shows with cute street muffins like Tristan Wilds on it. So disappointed he is on the new 90210, such a downgrade. 

I think I am spending the night in Edgewater tomorrow. I have a lot of laundry. If I go to my grandparents all I have to do is sort my laundry and somehow it gets done. My grandmother is the magical laundry fairy. She also makes me breakfast and packs my lunch. It's like being a kid again. Eternal youth, yes !

I wish I wasn't always so conflicted. When I have too many options I tend to become indifferent to all of them. Not good. 

Goodnight Sugarplums.

My week/weekend was crazy. I know I always say I am tired, but after this week I really am feel exhausted. I've fallen asleep/almost fallen asleep in so many places. I had a streak of bad luck in the beginning of the week. First my car got booted, AGAIN. From three tickets, that I got in July. I had totally forgotten about them. They have these boots now that are "self-removal". So you pay a hundred dollars to remove the boot yourself, & then you will get charged twenty five dollars for each day you don't return it to one of three locations. Plus, you have to pay five hundred dollars if the boot is "damaged". I saw three other cars that were booted on my way to return mine. End of the year, should be expected. My phone is also broken. If I put it down too hard on any surface it restarts. Sometimes, it even restarts just from closing or opening it. 

Thursday, My grandparents came down from Egdewater to go to the monument lighting with me & took me to a nice restaurant. They really like making excuses to go to nice restaurants. My grandmother takes pictures of everything. And I mean everything. She took a picture of our waiter too. She also makes it a point to learn everyone's name. She introduces herself with her first & middle name. She is the best, most classy lady in the universe.

My Grandfather on the other hand loves taking self pics. He took pictures of us & gets really excited when he gets "everyone" in. I think he has framed a couple of self pics he has taken. It was really fun hanging out with them. I don't know why I get to anxious when I think about them coming into my own separate living environment. They always make it a really fun, relaxing experience. They had Sofi's Crepes & didn't like them. Don't know what was up with that.

Work has been crazy lately. I don't care what anyone says, recession or not,people are still shopping & trampling people while doing so? 

Party Friday. Life[best movie] & baking beforehand. 

Co-founders of B-More Hard Ass Cakes. I love Kt. She is the best ever. 

Last night, due to lack of funds, I got to hang out with Anna & we created awesome social experiments. They really worked out in both of our favors. Then we got into a snowball fight & she lost.

Life really isn't all that bad.