Saturday, May 23, 2009

iTunes Genius is incredible. Sigur Ros' Saegl√≥pur Always give me the chills.

Made some collages:

One of my old high school friends recently told me that some crazy percentage of Capricorns are sociopaths. Turns out she's right and it's 25%. Crazy Capricorns.

Profile of the Sociopath:

-Superficial Charm
-Grandiose sense of self
-Lack of remorse, guilt or shame
-Shallow emotions
-Incapacity for love


My rising sign is a leo, what ya'll have to say about that?

My mommy got more kittens. We named them Marlo & Ziggy. We have an odd, never ending obsession with the Wire.

Katie's 21! Spent her birthday with her! Hope it was as fun as it seemed to be!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Bridge Over Troubled Waters

If someone were to ask me to show them where I was from it would take me days to give them the actual tour. It would require planes, trains and automobiles. I would have to take them to four places spread over Maryland and California. 1.  Edgewater, MD. 2. West Hollywood, CA.3.Fallston, MD.4. East Baltimore, MD.

I've never gotten to call anyone one place home. My mother's nomadic lifestyle lead us to move around a lot and I never feel like we developed any roots. The places I've lived have all influenced me in someway but have never defined who I am. All my good, positive memories never took place at "home". I remember other people's homes filled with others people's families who made me feel like I was part of something.

Going back to Fallston brought back old memories of feeling displaced. All I ever wanted was to feel like I was part of a family. All I felt during that period in my life was used. I wasn't recognized for anything, only reprimanded for my shortcomings which I was already fully aware of.  I began to feel like everything I ever did was wrong and that I would never amount to anything. But during this time, I learned how to fend for myself. I learned that you couldn't trust anyone and you could only depend on yourself. I plotted and schemed and saved just so I could be out on my own. I learned how to be alone. 

There's was some good times though too:

Two and a half years later, I've built a home for myself and my friends are my family. I am part of something and it's something tangible that I have faith in. Everything I have I have earned and it can't be taken away from me. I have come along way and I can't look back.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Such the little Munchkin.